I was diagnosed at a young age and went through the special education system in public schools. Family is incredibly important to me as I grew up in a large supportive family. I enjoy being outside in nature and arts and crafts.View all posts
Understanding Through Context
I often feel like I’m watching television with the sound really low. I can hear part of what’s going on but not everything. I can make educated guesses, however, I’m missing a lot of quieter interactions or more subtle interactions. I feel like I’m missing part of the show and in fact, I am. It often leaves me scratching my head about why something happened or what would happen next. This is somewhat what it’s like to have autism for me.
I’ve learned a lot and I’m pretty good at guessing what’s expected. It’s hard work and I don’t always get it right. I sometimes find it discouraging to work so hard and still be missing part of the pieces regarding what’s going on around me. Sometimes I disappoint other people because they expect me to get what’s going on and I don’t. I feel clumsy, awkward, inelegant in most social interactions. Don’t get me wrong, autism is part of me, however, if I had a choice in the matter, I probably wouldn’t choose to be different. I would choose to be neurotypical because I think life would be much easier for me and I wouldn’t have to work so hard.