Time to Change

Posted on January 15, 2019

I need to change things in my life so I waited to New Years to say “Yes, I’m going to change this year!” I feel a bit silly waiting til’ the start of a new year to think about making important changes in my life, but I wasn’t ready to admit that I need to change. Oftentimes, people in the past pushed me to make changes but until I was ready to make those changes for myself, it just made me angry.

My anger made it easy to ignore the need to change myself. It was hard to admit that there might be some truth to what other people said to me. I’m not sure right now how I’m going to break the changes down into doable steps. I do know that while I have to do the work myself, I have trustworthy people in my life to support me. The good new is that I’m not the only one making changes this time of year. One of the changes I need to make is being more blunt and spend less time worrying about what other people think. I also need to get out my apartment more and go more places. This is often difficult for me since I really struggle with social anxiety. I sometimes have a tough time reading people so it makes it harder to trust them. I need to acknowledge my emotions and learn how to work through them. Those are three of the changes I want to make this coming year.

Is change easy? No, but I’m tired of the way things are right now. I spend too much time watching my words in order not to offend other people. I feel housebound and the less time I spend outside my apartment, the worse my anxiety gets which is not fun at all. I’m frustrated with feeling confused and overwhelmed by emotions. Will I be able to make all the changes I want this coming year? I won’t know until I honestly try my best. I do know for sure that I can’t change without effort, commitment, and thought. I know that if I don’t try, I will never make the changes I want.

Best wishes to all of the readers for a happy, healthy, and exciting New Year!