I’m incredibly sensitive to criticism and rejection compared to my peers. I think this is in larger part due to the combination of having ADHD and an Autism diagnosis. I also have other learning disabilities in addition to a lot of sensory issues that make things more interesting.
Everything mixed together makes it harder for me to understand a lot of expectations of daily living, this was especially stressful as a kid and teen. I felt like I was always behind trying to figure out what was going on around me. Many things felt random and inconsistent to me as a younger person which sometimes caused lots of misunderstanding. Those interactions left me feeling anger, anxiety, and frustration because I didn’t understand what I did wrong or why I needed corrections at that time. I needed a lot of support to learn social expectations and how to get along with other people in various settings.
Being different from most of the people my age lead me to experience more criticism and rejection compared to a lot of my peers. This increased my vulnerability to negative reactions, kind of like an allergy where the more you’re exposed, the worst your reaction is to the situation. Similar circumstances where I feel like I’m being corrected often cause me to overreact to the stimulus due to prior conditioning.