The Outside Looking In: A Mother's Perspective

Posted on May 7, 2020

Trying to actually come up with any ideas for autism awareness month was kind of draining, so I decided to work on my video editing skills. Even though it was really hard to make this blog and the video at the same time, I will admit it was kind of fun doing a 2-hour project that took over two weeks that felt like it was worth the effort. Maybe I need to do a better job with that kind of work, but overall, it felt like I was teaching myself something new, and it was worth dealing with.

Tackling video editing was something I talked about on and off my older blogs. I don’t really talk about it often because even though I LIKE to make these videos regarding my life stories, sometimes I don’t feel committed to do them on a daily basis yet, which I would like to eventually do,  and they can be very stressful.

But this video in particular one made me learn about the outside looking in, from a perspective view of how not just my mom, but how mothers, in general, handle their children growing up and have dealt with autism. Even though both my mother and I have done conferences with each other, this is one of those few times where I sat in the whole entire thing AND wanted to hear the entire lists of perspectives that she had to deal with when raising me. In her interview “Mom’s night out” it was a wonderful take of how mothers raised their child and see them move on out towards adulthood.

It made me feel like I did accomplish a lot and made me feel proud of what I was doing on a consistent basis. Because there were times that I felt like I wasn’t doing enough, or I wouldn’t succeed in things in my personal life. This video made me look back on my growth, especially on the communication end. Besides the fact that I spent half of last year trying to talk about how I want to go about being more of a social person, I wasn’t sure if I wrote those topics down. I felt like I wasn’t doing enough socially on my end, but then again… it’s something about being very restrictive on yourself, especially when it’s constant criticism.

I don’t think I am my own worst critic, but I do think to myself that there are some changes I need to make and over and over, I will bring that up here. But when it came up to this video, I feel as though I learned a lot about about looking back and feeling good about myself, especially from my mother’s end. If you want to see it, I’ll post the link here (Advocate for me: Annual mom’s night out (With Lvonne McMillan and Michele Abraham-Montgomery) Part 1). And even though it is not Autism Awareness month, its still good to share a positive perspective in things and especially when we are dealing with these issues during quarantine. So stay positive and stay safe, always!